Thursday, July 30, 2009

Synchronicity


Yesterday I chose 2 cards for my guidance for the day. In the Flower Spirit Cards, I picked the Amaryllis. This flower spirit speaks to us of past hurts that have affected our sexuality and our sexual expression. Then my Osho Zen Tarot Cards revealed the card called "Innocence", which speaks of how we need to return to our innocent minds and our innocent hearts. The absolutely cool thing about these, other than that they both spoke to the same issues, was that they were both, in their respective books, on page 40.

That is what really caught my attention. When we have that kind of synchronicity, there is no doubt that we are having a moment of Divine intervention. Some would call this "coincidence", but that does not mean that it is accidental. It simply means that our path and the path of the Universe have coincided perfectly.

We all have experiences that have harmed us, especially sexual experiences. It can be anything from the result of a clumsy first time that ended with embarrassment, to an actual assault that was inflicted upon us. The thing is, we have to keep our sexuality and our love feelings pure. Religion talks a lot about love and tells us what it is supposed to look like. The problem with that is that then we don't have the pure, raw form of the emotion, thus we get that emotion all screwed up. Religion doesn't tell us how to hate properly, just that we shouldn't. But hate, like love, is completely pure in the emotional field of the human experience. If we could love in as passionate a way as we can hate, we would be much better off. Our creativity and our passion would not be hindered by the religious refinement of love, and our sexuality would also become pure and simple. We really need to discard the clutter of our religious and social upbringing and engage more with the raw, primordial self in order to truly become at one with ourselves as humans.

Blessed Be

Deerhorn
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Saturday, July 25, 2009

Breaking New Trails


I was the first person in all of Canada, to my knowledge, to hang a shingle on my door that said that I was a Shaman that was ready to help people. Of course I knew long before this event that this was the case, but I was also waiting for the "green light" from Spirit as to the correct timing of things. After all, as was previously written about in this blog, when people are not ready for this they can become very cruel in their responses.

So I waited for almost 20 years for the green light to be given. In the meantime, I was simply doing the work and not saying what the work was that I was doing. I would mask it to the general populace as being "counselling" or "hands on healing" or whatever the one inquiring would comprehend as non-threatening. I was ever so happy when the green light was turned on. No more hiding. No more having to cushion who I am or what I do. Then the fear set in. "Oh, My Goddess! This could be dangerous!". It never was. At least not in any way that I could not handle.

The thing about breaking new trails is that eventually it becomes paved and commonplace. Thanks to my pioneering spirit, many others have come out of the woodwork and declared themselves as doing this type of work. Granted, they do it their way and I do it my way, but I helped to take the fear out of it for them in that, although there would be personal issues around coming out of the shamanic closet, the stage was set for acceptance. I still find it strange to have someone say, for example, to my niece, who mentions casually that she is going to visit her uncle who is a shaman, "Oh, my God! Trent Deerhorn is your uncle?! I know him!" I guess that my name has gotten around a little bit. Clients have shared with me how on the other side of the planet people have the same response when they mention my name. It freaks me out a little, not because of fear, but because this grew much larger than I ever expected it to grow. This excites me. I am happy to be of service internationally, but I am also just a guy and I hope that people can keep that in mind when speaking of me. It humbles me to think that someone far away has so much appreciation for the work that I do. And to everyone who does appreciate me, let me say, "I love you too!".

Someone has to volunteer to break the trails. I just happened to be chosen by Spirit to do it. And because They knew that I am an adventurous spirit myself and like to break a few conventional rules along the way, I guess that They knew I was the one for the job, even when I did not completely know it myself. To Spirit, I also say, "Thank You! And I love You too!".

Blessed Be

Trent
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Friday, July 24, 2009

Reaching New Heights


Sometimes in order to reach new heights we have to let go of those things that are tying us down. This may mean emotional burdens, it could be financial situations, or possibly even some aspects of our own personalities or expectations of ourselves.

When I was finally able to let go of feeling like there was no one else like me in the whole world and all the loneliness that went along with that, I was able to find my "tribe", which allowed me to reach new heights in my self-awareness and my abilities as a person and as a shaman. There is nothing quite like the feeling that no one will understand you. The rub with that feeling is that you then don't allow others the opportunity to get in, so then it affirms the feeling of loneliness.

Allow yourself to release all that has been holding you back. Allow yourself to see what it is that no longer matches who you truly are and, thanking it for serving you as long as it did and for teaching you all that it did, let it go. Then go climbing. You will be amazed at how high you can get!

Blessed Be

Trent
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Thursday, July 23, 2009

Bridging the Gap


I am, according to Medicine Wheel philosophy, an Otter person. Otter people are gregarious and fun loving individuals who basically cannot resist sliding down the river bank into the water and having lots of hoots and hollers of glee as we do this. But as fun as we are, when we get betrayed, we tend to burn the bridges that connected us to the betrayers. Our main challenge in life is to learn when to not burn the bridge. When burning becomes an easy reflex, this challenge is not so smooth at times. The second challenge is to know when and how to bridge the gap between ourselves and those relationships that need healing. This often requires a very good sense of boundaries. We can't set ourselves up for further betrayal, but we also need to know that people can indeed change. We also need to understand that some will never change. On top of that, some who change do so incredibly slowly. When we withdraw from a relationship we need to do so in a way that is not about vengeance, but about respect. That respect is about the respect for ourselves first and for them in a secondary way.

Sound complicated? Well, believe me, it is. As we chip away at it the stones of the bridges sometimes prove denser that previously thought. And the bridges that we thought were perhaps made of strong material sometimes spontaneously combust all on their own. Go with the flow. That is the key. I find that the more I expect of myself and of others, the more frequently I get let down by myself and by others. So the more I relax and go with the flow and not inject my personal agenda into a relationship, the better off I am and the better off others are as well. This can appear, from the outside, to look like indifference and come across as being completely aloof. Really, it is the total acceptance of whatever is about to unfold. That way everyone is able to be free to simply be themselves and the gap is bridged.

Blessed Be

Trent
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Standing Stones

In many traditions of the North American Aboriginal cultures, stones and crystals are called, "Stone People". This is a way of acknowledging that there is a sentience to the earth and all the stones, which are also considered to be the bones of the Earth Mother. Trees are often called, "Standing People", which acknowledges the sentience of them as well. They are what I often refer to as "Our symbiotic partners of the Earth", which refers to the fact that without the trees, shrubs, plants, grasses, grains, vegetables and flowers, we would not be able to live. It also addresses the fact that the air we breathe is exchanged with them and that it is through this exchange that all creatures of the Earth are able to live.

In many ancient traditions, stones were also placed in particular patterns, and often in an upright position. This created the "Standing Stones" which are often found throughout the British Isles and Europe. These particular Standing Stones are found in Scotland. The ancients knew that there are special places on the Earth that have stronger energies than other places. These Standing Stones were created as a means of marking the locations as well as creating an intensification of those energies for sacred rituals. The relationship between humans and Spirit was considered to be ultimately important. The Standing Stones were not placed there as an offering to any Deity, but rather as a way of creating Sacred Space in which communion with Spirit was made possible. Often placed in a circle, these arrangements of stones created opportunity to step through a vortex of energy and speak directly with the Creative Spirit. Is it any wonder that thousands of years later they were said by churches to be evil? After all, if each individual were able to access Spirit on his or her own, then what use would there be for the Church? If the Church were to have no use, then the power it wielded over the people would become impotent. Yet many churches and cathedrals were erected over top the very same structures and sacred sites. That way they superimposed their own beliefs onto those of the people whom they had conquered. But the people they conquered were smarter than that. They knew that it would not be long before the church of the conquerors were assimilating the ancient ways and thus, unknowingly and unwillingly, would become yet another expression of the older and wiser ways.

Much of that still exists today. Yet even though the Church of the conquerors stand over top of the ancient Sacred Spaces, I find myself attracted more to the Standing Stones, the Medicine Wheels, the Henges, and the Labyrinths. They resonate with my being more deeply than the cathedrals and churches do, even though the cathedrals and churches are built over top the sacred sites. I guess somehow I just can't relate to the carcass hanging on a cross and bleeding from a wound on his side. In fact, I wonder sometimes if Jesus, if he were to read a bible, would weep not for the "sinners" but for the way his teachings have been mutilated over time. I think that he would perhaps have preferred to stand in the center of Stone Henge and chant, as opposed to hang at the front of a church or cathedral, half naked and wounded. I think that Jesus was more Pagan than Jew. And he certainly wasn't Christian. That came along centuries after his death.

Yes, the Standing Stones are certainly more appealing. The energy that emits, even from just a photograph of them, is immense. I hope that one day humans will find their way back, en mass, to the ancient ways of wisdom. That way we will find our way back to the Heart and no longer need the "middle man" to create sacred communion with Spirit. And yes, I do know that what I have written is considered by many to be "blasphemous". Isn't it nice that we now live in an age where that no longer matters?

Blessed Be

Trent
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Thursday, July 16, 2009

Tranquility


We all need a quiet spot; a place that allows us to simply relax once again, decompress the day and breathe. This can be a physical place that we have instant access to, but it can also be a place of peace within our psyche. I have such a place.

My place of peace is a sandy beach at sunset. I have a Spirit Guide there who gives me very wise counsel. She looks similar to an actress that I have seen on TV, but her voice is not the same and she does not have the same accent. I think that she appears to me in this form so that I can relate to her. After all, she is pretty. I am a sucker for pretty women.

So we walk along the beach and talk about stuff. The sun slowly sets and the stars come out and I lie down and watch them as I slip into sleep. Then I travel through the universe of stars to my "home world" and get even more insights and wisdoms shared with me. When I come back, I am fully replenished.

All this can take just a minute or two, and in that time I then know what I must do. I love my place of peace. I have another in the desert with a fire pit. It is amazing who and what comes out of the darkness and joins me at the fire to share insights. Sometimes who comes out of the darkness is someone that I need to assist on their journey of healing. So I do. It is just as important to give and to share as it is to receive and become aware.

Find your place of peace. Find your Inner Wisdom Voice. Find your self once again...

Blessed Be

Trent
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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Completion

Every now and then, in order for something new to be born, something of the old must be let go. This is never an easy thing and it often brings to us all the issues and stages of grief that we all go through when change happens. Yet the changes are often needed, for one reason or another, and happen they will.

When we look at the philosophy of the wheel, everything is constantly in a form of change. There is never really a beginning or an end, just a continual flow from one phase of development into the next. When we are in the middle of that change, however, we can lose perspective on that grander picture. We go into things like denial, anger, sadness, and eventually acceptance.

It is when we reach that phase of acceptance that we can then move forward and create something new and fresh. Sometimes that change happens as a result of circumstances where we feel completely out of control, like being broad sided by a vehicle at an intersection. When this happens, the trauma of the event needs first to be processed and healed so that the many stages of grief can happen. And none of this happens just one thing after or before another. Sometimes it happens all in an organic soup of experiences.

The thing to remember, however, is that we need to have faith in ourselves, in those around us, and in Spirit all through the experience. As that faith is challenged and we hang on to the faith, we set up a way of communicating our experiences so that all understand what it is we are processing. This enables others to be of support and assistance to us, and us to them when they are going through similar things. We then truly become a community of wounded, yet vibrant healers. As we work through our personal responses to the changes, we come to a state of completion. This is a state of complete understanding of where we are in the world and what the experiences have meant to us.

Blessed Be

Trent
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Thursday, July 9, 2009

The Way Eye See It


My daughter is brilliant. I know. That sounds like a proud dad bragging. Well, even others think she is, so there! She was selected recently to perform a public debate regarding literary subject matter. She rocked! I was amazed at how well spoken she is and how articulate she can be. She also worked the audience, quite naturally, and had them laughing. Needless to say, she and her team mate won the debate. It really wasn't about winning or losing for her. It was more the opportunity to present in such a public manner. There was challenge and excitement, as well as honour in having been selected in the first place.

I will always know that I can count on her to present her opinion, even if others disagree with it. This is part of what I love about her. Strong willed, she is that, and independent, thank goodness, but always honest about what she thinks. I have reason to be a proud dad!

Blessed Be

Trent
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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Never Trust a Puddle


It could be much deeper than you think. Just as you realize how late you are running on a rainy day, and you step on the gas, you inevitably hit a puddle that is so deep it almost swallows your vehicle. Slow down! The reason water gathers is because it is a low spot. And that spot, at least in our fair city, usually means a crater sized pot hole!

People are also often much deeper than they appear to be at first. Given the opportunity to dip one's toes into their pond, so to speak, one discovers a depth and richness to their characters that they often do not find any other time. People are very busy hiding themselves from others, whether it be at work, at home or at play. So take the time to ask and to ponder.

Blessed Be

Trent
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Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Mermaids

I was at a friend's funeral a few years ago and one of the people who got up to speak about her and her life described her as a fellow mermaid. I found that this description surprised me and yet, at the same time, made total sense in terms of her being quite an unusual person with interesting viewpoints on almost everything. Until she was described this way, I had no concept of the fact that mermaids could actually exist.

Since then, I have had many journeys where I have encountered mermaids and merfolk of a variety of sorts. I have also met many people with mermaid energy. These tend to be gentle yet forward thinking people, like my deceased friend. They have an energy that emits healing and emotional fluidity and deep soul connections. I always feel honored to meet a modern day mermaid!

Blessings

Trent
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Saturday, July 4, 2009

Snow Goose

"The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white. Neither need you do anything but be yourself." Lao-Tse.

I know a person who says it takes 2 hours for her to get ready for work in the morning. What on earth can take 2 hours I don't know. She works in the cosmetics industry. I guess that says it all. We are bombarded by images of what it looks like to be "put together" and, therefore, acceptable. When we really get down to it, if we were on a plane that crashed and we survived the crash and were stranded on a deserted island, would lipstick really matter? No. What would matter would be food and shelter.

I personally don't intend to be on a plane that crashes, so hopefully I will not regret writing those words one day. However, I can certainly say that the most important thing in presenting myself has always been to simply be myself. Yes, I wear nice clothes and I wear jewelry, but the most I do cosmetically is shave, put on skin lotion (unscented) and deodorant. If all else failed, I would be stinky and hairy. That is just the way it is.

We get so caught up in others' expectations though. We think we have to have and wear what is "in" so that we will fit in. I personally would rather not try to fit into something that is not me. I like the way I am and if anyone else doesn't like it, then it is their loss. Nor do I need to like them. We can respect each other, yes, but we need not like each other. I have found that being liked by everyone is too difficult a task and that it takes way too much energy and time. Trying to like someone that I really don't like is also a waste of time and energy.

Be yourself. Love yourself. All else will either not matter, or will simply and easily fit.

Blessed Be

Trent
www.deerhornshamanic.com

Fire Pit

It is at a fire pit gathering that some of the most interesting conversations can take place. I shared with a group of friends last night my experience of the "Fly by Shooting" and got some cool feedback.

It was suggested that the pigeon, which is a large member of the Dove family, was blessing me with Peace as it flew through my car. There were a lot of other lore shared about birds flying into houses and running into windows, and even a funny story about a stalker pigeon. But the aspect of "Peace" rang very true for me. I am blessed to have such insightful friends.

Blessed Be

Trent
www.deerhornshamanic.com

Friday, July 3, 2009

Fly By Shooting

This afternoon I went out for a coffee run for my coworkers. On the way back, I stopped at a stop sign. Both the driver and passenger windows were down, thank goodness, because (and this is strange, even for me) a pigeon flew right through my car!

That's right. It just shot right through. I had looked to my left and this, I believe, is what made enough room for it to get past my face. I saw it headed for me and thought, "That bird is gonna..." and it did! This was truly a fly by shooting!

Yup. I might be stranger than most, but I am no longer a stranger to this sort of event!

Blessed Be

Trent
www.deerhornshamanic.com

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Some Like it Hot


When I saw this photo, I had to have it for the Blog. To me it resonates with all the colors of my passion and creativity. I may even do a print of it for my wall. Have you noticed how the clouds do actually have a silver lining? Totally cool.

There are some things, other than the weather, that I like hot. Barbecued hamburgers, soup, coffee, just to name a few. I also like hot passion and hot tubs. Sometimes these two things can be combined, but it really does depend upon the company you keep.

I don't, however, like to have it hot when I am trying to sleep. That drives me crazy. I like a cool breeze and tend to sleep with only a sheet at most covering me. I often wake up in the morning with nothing covering me at all. That is when I know that I have truly rested. It feels great to just let the air blow over my naked body and when it does I go into very deep and meditative sleeps. This is, of course, only possible when the mosquitoes are not all about, in which case I am cocooned into a tight little shell to protect me from them. When that happens, I don't sleep well at all.

I am curious about sleep and what helps folks to sleep and get really good rest while doing so? Is it an environment, a temperature, a position? What do you experience?

Blessed Be

Trent
www.deerhornshamanic.com
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