Sunday, September 20, 2009
When Love Is Found
I have been through a lot in my life. I have had many experiences of what I thought was love and turned out to be more along the lines of co-dependence. Each time I have had another go at love and discovered yet another disappointment, I have become more and more jaded. There was a time not so long ago that I thought that I may never experience love in my life.
Sure, I am very familiar with the intense sort of love I feel for my daughters, but that is a different form of love than the kind I have been looking for all of my life. Suddenly in walks this amazing woman with such a bright light in her eyes and she made me laugh. Once again, I felt my heart flip upside down and back again. But I was unavailable at the time and also had become so jaded that I was certain that I was imagining all of it. Finally I became aware that I was not the only one feeling it. Then I tried to run away from it for a moment, thinking that I was about to throw away what was known and what felt somewhat secure, albeit insufficient. After much struggle, and many tears, I had to choose love.
When love is finally found, there is an exuberance that evolves within and this energy emits a glow and ripple outward to the world. Two hearts can inspire love all around them and create opportunity for others to experience and express love within themselves and for others around them as well. I am blessed to have finally found love. It is real. Marriage? No. I don't think that the institution of marriage has anything to do with love. It is simply a legal contract. We already have that in a mortgage and thousands of dollars of debt that we are working together to pay off. The commitment is in our hearts and in our souls. This goes much deeper than any legality.
Many Warm Blessings